From Perfect Suburban Life to Prison | Women in Prison: Real Talk

From Perfect Suburban Life to Prison | Women in Prison: Real Talk


THE DAY THAT I KNEW MY LIFE WAS
DOWN THE TUBES, IT WAS A MONDAY MORNING. [ AIDEN WAILING ] AND MIKE WAS LAYING NEXT TO ME. [ SUSPENSEFUL MUSIC PLAYS ] [ CONTINUES WAILING ] ♪♪ I KNEW THAT I NEEDED
MEDICATION TO MAKE MY DAY. ♪♪ [ WAILING ] I KISSED MY SON… [ SUSPENSEFUL CHORD STRIKES ] [crying]
…AND I SAID… [ CRYING ] ♪♪ [ SUSPENSEFUL CHORD STRIKES ] [ SUSPENSEFUL
CHORD STRIKES ] ♪♪ SIR? FACE THE WALL. THE MOMENT THAT I SET FOOT IN PRISON
FOR THE FIRST TIME, THE ONLY WORDS THAT CAME
WAS, “OH, CRAP!” LEFT HAND. IT WAS SO SCARY. [ CUFFS RATCHETING ] IT WAS EVERYTHING
THAT YOU WOULD SEE ON TV. [ HIP HIP PLAYS SOFTLY ] THERE’S JUST PEOPLE
YELLING AT YOU! YOU DON’T KNOW WHAT TO DO.
YOU DON’T KNOW WHERE TO GO. WHEN THEY LOCKED ME IN MY CELL,
I BROKE DOWN AND STARTED CRYING. [ CAMERA SHUTTER CLICKS ] [ CAMERA SHUTTER
CLICKS ] ♪♪ I’VE BEEN HERE
FOR A YEAR AND A HALF. WHEN YOU’RE INCARCERATED
IN A MAXIMUM SECURITY PRISON, LIFE IS VERY HARD,
VERY STRESSFUL. ♪♪ IF YOU MET ME
BEFORE I CAME TO PRISON, YOU WOULD’VE HAD NO IDEA
THAT I WOULD’VE ENDED UP HERE. ♪♪ Belinda:
THERE’S NO STATUS HERE. EVERYTHING IS STRIPPED AWAY,
THAT MAKES YOU WHO YOU ARE. WE’RE IN KHAKIS
AND WE ARE ALL A NUMBER, NO LONGER INDIVIDUALS
OR PEOPLE. WE ARE OUR CRIME. THIS IS THE ULTIMATE DEVASTATION
TO ANY PERSON’S LIFE. EVERYTHING’S GONE. [ SUSPENSEFUL CHORD STRIKES ] PRISON IS AWFUL, BUT, WHEN YOU’RE HANDCUFFED
AND SENT TO LOCK, IT’S JUST THE WORST
FEELING, EVER. [ CLANG ] [ KEYS JINGLING ] ♪♪ LOCK IS BASICALLY
SOLITARY CONFINEMENT. IT’S PRISON INSIDE OF PRISON AND IT’S HORRIBLE. ♪♪ [ WOMEN SHOUTS INDISTINCTLY
IN DISTANCE ] IN YOUR CELL 23 HOURS A DAY. YOU’RE HANDCUFFED AND SHACKLED
AT EVERY MOVEMENT. [ CUFFS RATCHETING ] ALRIGHT. IT’S THE MAX
OF MAXIMUM SECURITY. ♪♪ THERE ARE WOMEN IN HERE
THAT ARE CRAZY! ♪♪ Red:
YOU GO TO LOCK FOR FIGHTING. [laughing]
PEOPLE HAVE BEEN TO LOCK
FOR STEALIN’ THE GUARDS’ FOOD. YOU GO TO LOCK FOR SPREADIN’
VICIOUS RUMORS ABOUT STAFF. BUT MOST PEOPLE GO TO LOCK
FOR GIRLFRIEND ACTIVITY. [ CLANGING ] ♪♪ A KISS, A HANDSHAKE, A HUG,
YOU GO TO LOCK. ♪♪ ♪♪ I’M ANXIOUS FOR THE VISIT,
TO HUG THEM. ♪♪ TSK. [ GIGGLING ] BUT, WHEN YOU’RE IN PRISON,
IT’S NOT THAT SIMPLE. MICHAEL HAS NOT BEEN
BRINGING AIDEN TO SEE ME ON A REGULAR BASIS
FOR A WHILE. I’VE HAD LARGE GAPS,
WAITED FOR VISITS THAT HE PROMISED I WOULD HAVE
AND WOULD NEVER SHOW. THAT’S VERY PAINFUL. HOW CAN ANY
RELATIONSHIP SURVIVE WHEN ONE PERSON CAN’T
TRUST ANYTHING THE OTHER PERSON IS SAYING? ♪♪ BYE, BYE, HORSEY. [ LAUGHTER ] SINCE I’VE BEEN IN PRISON, THINGS WITH MIKE AND I
WENT SOUTH REAL FAST. MS. BROWN? ♪♪ I JUST RECEIVED
LEGAL MAIL. ♪♪ I SAID, “LEGAL MAIL,
FROM THE COUNTY CLERK?” [ SCOFF ] MY HUSBAND WANTS A DIVORCE. -MNH.
-NOTHIN’ LIKE BEING LEFT WHEN YOU’RE DOWN, HUH? HE NEVER EVEN TOLD ME TO MY FACE
THAT HE FILED FOR DIVORCE AND HE SAW ME THREE DAYS AFTER
HE FILED AND NEVER TOLD ME. HE WANTS SOLE CUSTODY
OF MY KID. HOW OLD IS YOUR SON? HE’LL BE TWO. WOW.
SO HE’S LITTLE. [ MELANCHOLY TUNE PLAYS ] YOU WANT MY SON, THE ONE THING
I WANTED MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF, THAT I STRUGGLED FOR
AND STRIVED FOR, HAD MISCARRIAGE
AFTER MISCARRIAGE, AND I WANTED THIS BABY
MORE THAN ANYTHING… ♪♪ DEVASTATED. Betsy:
PRISON CAN PUT A HUGE STRAIN
ON MARRIAGE. I MEAN, PRISON PUTS
A HUGE STRAIN ON EVERYTHING, PHYSICALLY, EMOTIONALLY. THERE’S A LOYALTY ISSUE WHEN YOU’RE OUT THERE
AND I’M IN HERE. YOU KNOW, HOW ARE
YOUR NEEDS BEING MET? OVER THE YEARS I’VE SEEN LOTS
OF PEOPLE FILE FOR DIVORCE. Red:
RELATIONSHIPS FAIL
IN PRISON. IT’S HARD BEIN’ AWAY
FROM YOUR LOVED ONE. IT’S HARD DOING THIS.
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN? ♪♪ CONSEQUENCES WILL ALWAYS
[laughing] COME UP AND BITE YOU
WHEN YOU LEAST EXPECT IT. YOU WILL ALWAYS FEEL THE FORCE
OF YOUR CRIME, ALWAYS. Alicia:
I REALIZE THAT THIS
RELATIONSHIP IS OVER. ♪♪ IF YOU DON’T WANNA BE
MY HUSBAND, I UNDERSTAND THAT. LOOKING BACK, I WASN’T
A GOOD WIFE TO HIM AT ALL. ♪♪ I COMMITTED A CRIME. I WROTE PRESCRIPTIONS
THAT I SHOULD NOT HAVE WROTE. I HAD A DRUG ADDICTION. I’VE LOST MY HOME, MY FAMILY. [ ECHO DROWNING VOICE ] [ LAUGHS ] [ CLANG, KEYS JINGLE ] [voice breaking]
I JUST WANNA SEE MY SON, TO LOOK INTO HIS EYES
AND TO HEAR HIM TALK TO ME, TO HEAR HIM SAY,
“I LOVE YOU.” I JUST WANNA SEE MY SON. BUT WE ALL HAVE
TO COEXIST IN PRISON AND YOU HAVE TO FIND
YOUR PLACE IN IT. IT’S JUST SURVIVAL. BUT I NEVER SAW
THIS HAPPENING. I NEVER CAME TO PRISON
TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP, NOR DID I WANT ONE. HOWEVER… [ TENDER TUNE PLAYS ] -HELLO.
-HI! -HERE I AM.
-HERE I AM. LISA IS MY GIRLFRIEND HERE. WE ARE IN A RELATIONSHIP HERE. SHE’S VERY PRETTY. SHE’S…BEAUTIFUL
FROM THE INSIDE OUT, WHICH MAKES A DIFFERENCE. ♪♪ I DEVELOPED THIS
RELATIONSHIP WITH HER THAT I CAN’T DESCRIBE
AND EXPLAIN AND I DON’T KNOW HOW
IT’S ALL GONNA PLAY, BUT I KNOW THAT SHE’S
IN MY LIFE TO STAY. SO, 2:00?
UH, YEAH. SHE’S MY FAMILY. [ LAUGHTER ] [ SUSPENSEFUL CHORD STRIKES ] ♪♪ [ SUSPENSEFUL CHORD STRIKES ]

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100 Comments

  1. In the 90s, before the opioid and fentanyl laced street drugs, I arrested many people mostly young women for prescription drug fraud, much like Alicia. I almost always recommended probation rather than incarceration.

  2. And yet doctors pharmaceutical companies and insurance companies getting rich from hooking people on there money making drugs. She never should have been sentenced as she was.

  3. Now she thinks about her son but she never thought about him before, when she choosed criminality's way. Please!!
    Children are first before you, before a man, before money, before drugs. Simply.

  4. What a fucked up system we have. She is not a criminal. She is a sick women who needs rehab help with her addiction. Not incarceration. Besides going to LOCK is where most murders done by guards to inmates happen. Inmates are helpless lock in chains so the guards have free reighn to beat, rape, and kill women inmates. And all done with the protection of prison administration to cover things up..

  5. Hm, I didn't know that it wasn't allowed to have relationships with other prisoners. Maybe that's just the rule in certain prisons. But I'm sure that in one of these episodes, a prisoner said that it's quite common, like, it's normal for the prisoners to have romantic relationships with each other.

  6. She didn't love her little boy enough to hold back on the drugs. She should have been working instead of sitting idle by doing fucking drugs. Addiction is preventable just like abortion. JUST DON'T TAKE THE PILL AND DON'T FUCK. Simple as that.

  7. How can u fault your husband for leaving you. And getting full custody? You have a new partner and can’t provide for the child, what is he supposed to do

  8. Guards do rape women inmates check out the federal prison in Tallahassee Florida . It made headline news drugs and alcohol traded for sex . Doesn't matter if some of the women were willing ..The law says it's still considered rape . The FBI went to serve papers to the guards and had a shoot out killing the guard and FBI agent .Google it . I dont have to I was there when it happened.

  9. What did you expect it to be like Holiday Inn you did what you did you're in prison leave it at that many of us have been there what do you expect do your time and quit whining

  10. Amerikkka locks too many people up for the most redundant of things. Should have given her community service instead imo

  11. Her freaking girlfriend looks like a serial killer! And she also looks like a guy. Her troubles aren't over she involves herself with a person like that and expects her life to be a bed of roses? It's laughable! I wonder what her psycho looking girlfriend is in prison for?

  12. Doesn't matter where u live, ppl know" that, or what color u are, all ppl do evil shit, some demonic, n evil someone said she need help no prison" I know who said" that, all ppls in here that's here on drug crimes need help n not prison all so, shes no diff, I hope they let most of the black women's out also,

  13. Maximum security, 10 years, for prescription fraud????? I know stories of people who tried to hire a hitman and got less

  14. this lady sickens me. if she cared so much she wouldn't let anything/anybody/circumstance get between her and her family. obviously she cared about herself more. the love of a child is all you need.

  15. There is something missing here. Her punishment didn't fit the crime. Also, she wasn't living the perfect suburban life. She was convicted 3x before prison

  16. That's fucked up file for divorce while she's in prison oh, he could have waited till she got out I do not know what that marriage was like and then see how everything was going and then if it was going downhill then file for divorce.

  17. She is in a Maximum Security Prison for prescription fraud !!! What ??? Where do they put killers then, in underground bunkers ? This is overkill on a ridiculous scale – as an addict she needed therapy, not prison, and her crime was related to her addiction. As a European, it is hard to understand the insane sentences that US Courts of Law deal out to criminals – they are often in absolutely no relation to the crime.

  18. I would have waited for her if I where married to her. Not only is she beautiful but if she was the mother of my son oh man, what a cowardly douche bag he is.

  19. I'm confused, are we supposed to feel sorry for this woman? Her husband filed for divorce and wants sole custody, um, of course he does. You're a drug addict in prison and having a lesbian relationship 🙄

  20. This is absolutely crazy. How is this even a crime? These pharmaceutical companies knowingly peddle is addictive crap, our bodies are pre-disposed to get hooked, and then we try to get more. These people are addicts, not criminals.

  21. A penal system that imprisons people for non violent (and victimless), crimes, is an EVIL penal system. … This particular lady could have been given some (unpaid), community work to do (even at 4 hrs a week), and her and the American tax payer would be better served.

  22. I CURSE all Unconstitutional law enforcement and Representatives, Senators with cancer.
    You made Doctors feel like drug dealers who give people who have chronic pain, RELIEF.
    MY AUNT HAS CANCER AND HER DOCTOR SHALL NOT WRITE HER PRESCRIPTIONS FOR HYDROCODON OR OXYCONTIN.
    THE OTHER PAIN MEDICINE THEY WANT TO GIVE YOU NOW ROTS YOUR TEETH.
    IF YOU DONT HAVE TEETH YOU CAN NOT GET NUTRIENTS TO LIVE LET ALONE FIGHT THE CANCER.
    YOU FOOLS HAVE NO IDEA THE HELL YOU CREATED FOR SPECIAL INTERESTS TO TAKE OUR FREEDOMS AWAY.
    GO MOVE TO ENGLAND IF YOU CAN NOT HANDLE FREEDOM AND FREEDOM OF CHOICE.
    DECRIMINALIZE ALL DRUGS.
    TAKE THE MONEY AWAY FROM THE SATANIC JEWS IN THE C. I. A. AS WELL AS THE DRUG GANGS AROUND THE WORLD.

  23. Saying she wanted her son more than anything but not realizing that she chose drugs over her son. Her husband deserves full custody for the kids safety. She could get visits, but she may mess him up with her addiction.

  24. addiction is a disease. when will people get that? not that you’re not accountable for your actions, but you could never ever ever imagine what it is like unless you’re been there.

  25. Are we really supposed to feel sorry for these females? I don't. Can't do the time, don't do the crime. They are all where they need to be…

  26. The kids should not visit.
    Things went south when you chose a lesbian relationship.
    There is a strong lack of remorse & acceptance of guilt.
    I pray your son is happy & healthy with his Dad.

  27. God, I hope she was able to get her baby back partially. I Wonder how much time she got for that, and in what year she was Caught.

  28. This is my second comment if I was your husband I would have done the same thing she's a druggie and she's going to come out a Lizzie so what kind of example is that I'm married to her and she has a girlfriend over all the time you did the crime do your time you screwed up your life and your husband is has every reason not to be with you voice text and to answer some other comment not all of us are stupid enough to do that not all of us have to take drugs a lot of us have a stronger Constitution than to do that it's all excuse-making should have got 50 years for doing it voice text

  29. She's worrying about the wrong thing. Seems like she's more concerned about the relationship than how TF she's going to get out.

  30. I seen many comments of people saying going to prison for prescription drug fraud is insane,…Fuck yeah it is ! but think about it, knowing how corrupted the justice system is especially the prosecutors ( it's all about the money, making money off of human misery in prison ) instead of getting rehab which will work for the offender to better themselves but it won't work for the prosecutor who wants to make money and gain points on how many people they sent to prison so they can get their big fat paycheck. This is the fucked up world we live in,… prison is a money making system. – Dare To Speak

  31. A person who has a strong addiction to drugs has seriously impaired judgement, poor impulse control, impaired perception of reality, and often is alienated from their family. Only a fool believes that prison helps such a person.

  32. It's HER fault for kissing me, HIS fault for divorcing me, HIS fault for not bringing her son (to PRISON). Best of all "How can a relationship survive when one person can't trust ANYthing the other says. GUESS YOU KNOW HOW HE FEELS NOW? Congrats Alicia, you're a TYPICAL criminal, minimise your shit. Blame it on others. Hope your son escapes your self-self=self world.

  33. Prescription fraud is essentially stealing. And the people who do it are mostly addicts. A thief or an addict should not be in max security.

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